Nope!
Not rest and relaxation, as I would have wished and always wish, even in the moment.
Responsibility and Regulation.
Cannot live with them, but cannot live without them either. Education, the workplace, home, shopping, community upkeep, family get-togethers, church services and socials, lifestyle, health status, vacation ... even a 10-minute power nap. All of these and more require some degree of balance between regulation and responsibility. Responsibility can be the emotion, and regulation the logic. But even if vice versa, if there is any communication breakdown or high expectation, things can be either enjoyable or stressful or any mix of both.
Thankfully, my professors and family have made this week's responsibilities enjoyable for the most part. It was regulation that lingered as a warning that irresponsibility is a bad choice, but an occurrence nonetheless. Regulation is then an area I know I still need improvement in, and will need to work to make decided efforts to keep on my side and under control.
Meantime, reflecting and recounting through writing will be a tentative gauge and log of where I am. It has taken a few weeks to restore my health and resume life, while trying to catch up with everything in a seemingly haphazard style. I am encouraged, though, that my spinning and reeling has transitioned more towards jumping and rolling.
Anyway, someday, R&R will mean realistic and rewarding as my long-term goals are accomplished. The remaining days of this particular term will be filled with revamping and maybe some more revising; we'll see. This unit promises to replay in my mind for months to come. But I hope to never, ever, ever have to relive or repeat it ... ever again.
No; thank you :).
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